Continued from MIA Part I….. Somehow that one fertilized egg made it through to the 8 cell stage. I was unfazed. Both of my last embryos were 8 cell and did not yield a pregnancy. I was not excited. During the transfer, my husband was late, we didn’t get a good picture of the embryo […]
I am two little days before my first blood test (beta) to confirm the pregnancy hormone (HCG). Wednesday marked the 9th day post transfer and also the day the spotting began…. Now, through consulting Dr. Google, this could be one of 3 (million) things: 1. Implantation Bleeding (your embryo is burrowing it’s way into the […]
I sometimes wish I had some more commonly known condition to refer to that could help people understand the stress of the two week wait or any of the waits during an IF cycle. I could liken it to waiting to find out if you got into your first choice college or waiting to find […]
This morning I spotted a woman I know who was suddenly visibly pregnant (what’s up with that sudden visibility anyway?) Long story short, she met her husband, they were married within months and now they’re pregnant. I know her husband well and know that he’s wanted to find someone to start a family with for […]
I’m at the 1/2 way point of the 2ww and losing my mind, quietly, mind you and without needing ANY MORE ADVICE from anyone who has not been through the infertility journey. Demanding? Yes, but this is why I started writing my own blog :). In an effort to keep the spirits up, I have […]
My DH and I are 100% teammates throughout this whole process. High-fives happen after PIO injections, texts of “I need a pep talk captain” are responded to with supportive affirmations that we are doing everything we can. I gave him a book called “What to Expect When She’s Not Expecting” – it’s been a great resource […]
I received a text today from a friend who is a mom of a two month old and a two year old: “Just think positive – it’s all you can do right?” I texted back “Yup – but what does that even mean?” and then quickly erased the “but what does that even mean?” as […]
“The mistake is thinking that there can be an antidote to the uncertainty.” ― David Levithan, The Lover’s Dictionary So this is it Day 4 of 14 of the 2ww. 10 days to go. 240 hours… 14,400 minutes, 864,000 seconds which amounts to approximately A LOT of what if, controlling, searching for answer-type thoughts. The […]
I would like to explain the excessive use of the “F” word in my latest posts. I feel that it has been the perfect expletive to describe the slight pseudo psychosis that has walked beside me since the beginning of this journey. If you are bothered by it, simply replace that word with something nicer, […]
I’m a rookie, a newbie, a recruit and a pioneer of my own reproductive system. If this process weren’t so painful, I’d find it more fascinating. Nothing is constant, everything is in flow, each new piece of information seems really, really good and then I find out that it’s actually not great in the scheme […]
What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Fertile? 