Moments of ranting on virtual paper about sensitive subjects during a journey that without a ranting outlet could result in jail time due to reactivity and severe hormonal changes.
Continued from MIA Part I….. Somehow that one fertilized egg made it through to the 8 cell stage. I was unfazed. Both of my last embryos were 8 cell and did not yield a pregnancy. I was not excited. During the transfer, my husband was late, we didn’t get a good picture of the embryo […]
Well, I’ve been holding my breath for a good 2 months, so we’ll start back from the last post. In August, I was anything but positive… Pissed off at people trying to help but not wanting to listen, I retracted and started to plan. The cycle went something like this – good growth of my […]
If you’ve been through IVF and told people about it, their typical response is “Good! I know someone who did it and they got pregnant – it will totally work for you – I can feel it!!” It’s as if a box was checked in their brain that said “Fix Friend’s Infertility Woes With Story […]
Hi Ya’ll, I’ve taken two weeks off (how therapeutic of me) since my BFN of last cycle. There is a lot to come but I’m not quite ready to put it all out on text…. in the meantime, some advice that I mustered up today: I believe that the anxiety is there to help us […]
I feel like the product of a bad break up. It’s like I got to this point where me and the embies were about to “move in” and make a life together and something changed. Did my lining get to “cling-y?” Did my hormones demand too much growth? Did they try to change the cells […]
Start all over again…. This was my first IVF cycle and I’m still in a bit of shock after receiving a BFN (big fat negative) beta/blood test result yesterday. There are three things that I know to be true: 1. I am definitely infertile. The diagnosis is correct. It doesn’t mean that I won’t be […]
This morning I spotted a woman I know who was suddenly visibly pregnant (what’s up with that sudden visibility anyway?) Long story short, she met her husband, they were married within months and now they’re pregnant. I know her husband well and know that he’s wanted to find someone to start a family with for […]
I’m at the 1/2 way point of the 2ww and losing my mind, quietly, mind you and without needing ANY MORE ADVICE from anyone who has not been through the infertility journey. Demanding? Yes, but this is why I started writing my own blog :). In an effort to keep the spirits up, I have […]
I received a text today from a friend who is a mom of a two month old and a two year old: “Just think positive – it’s all you can do right?” I texted back “Yup – but what does that even mean?” and then quickly erased the “but what does that even mean?” as […]
The problem with most advice is not that it’s bad or ill intentioned, but that it’s devoid of context. – The Big Enough Company Throughout this journey I’ve been blessed with support from family, friends and weirdly strangers. But every so often (realistically every day) someone somewhere offers up a gem or two that knocks […]
What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Fertile? 