Hi Ya’ll, I’ve taken two weeks off (how therapeutic of me) since my BFN of last cycle. There is a lot to come but I’m not quite ready to put it all out on text…. in the meantime, some advice that I mustered up today: I believe that the anxiety is there to help us […]
I feel like the product of a bad break up. It’s like I got to this point where me and the embies were about to “move in” and make a life together and something changed. Did my lining get to “cling-y?” Did my hormones demand too much growth? Did they try to change the cells […]
Start all over again…. This was my first IVF cycle and I’m still in a bit of shock after receiving a BFN (big fat negative) beta/blood test result yesterday. There are three things that I know to be true: 1. I am definitely infertile. The diagnosis is correct. It doesn’t mean that I won’t be […]
I am two little days before my first blood test (beta) to confirm the pregnancy hormone (HCG). Wednesday marked the 9th day post transfer and also the day the spotting began…. Now, through consulting Dr. Google, this could be one of 3 (million) things: 1. Implantation Bleeding (your embryo is burrowing it’s way into the […]
I sometimes wish I had some more commonly known condition to refer to that could help people understand the stress of the two week wait or any of the waits during an IF cycle. I could liken it to waiting to find out if you got into your first choice college or waiting to find […]
This morning I spotted a woman I know who was suddenly visibly pregnant (what’s up with that sudden visibility anyway?) Long story short, she met her husband, they were married within months and now they’re pregnant. I know her husband well and know that he’s wanted to find someone to start a family with for […]
I’m at the 1/2 way point of the 2ww and losing my mind, quietly, mind you and without needing ANY MORE ADVICE from anyone who has not been through the infertility journey. Demanding? Yes, but this is why I started writing my own blog :). In an effort to keep the spirits up, I have […]
What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Fertile? 