Moments of clarity through a journey of uncertainty
From Fitness to Fertility As seen on Athleta’s Chi Blog HERE February 12, 2014 By Jenna Zaffino The year of 2012 had me completely in the zone. I had been dancing, running and Pilates-ing my way through the past 11 years of my life, I was the head of my successful Pilates studio and had […]
Continued from MIA Part I….. Somehow that one fertilized egg made it through to the 8 cell stage. I was unfazed. Both of my last embryos were 8 cell and did not yield a pregnancy. I was not excited. During the transfer, my husband was late, we didn’t get a good picture of the embryo […]
If you’ve been through IVF and told people about it, their typical response is “Good! I know someone who did it and they got pregnant – it will totally work for you – I can feel it!!” It’s as if a box was checked in their brain that said “Fix Friend’s Infertility Woes With Story […]
Well, I went off of the radar for a few, licked my wounds and starting on Wednesday, I get back on the roller coaster ride that is IVF for one more time with my own eggs. I’ve spent the last few weeks truly questioning and reflecting on how moving forward with IF treatments will happen […]
I feel like the product of a bad break up. It’s like I got to this point where me and the embies were about to “move in” and make a life together and something changed. Did my lining get to “cling-y?” Did my hormones demand too much growth? Did they try to change the cells […]
Start all over again…. This was my first IVF cycle and I’m still in a bit of shock after receiving a BFN (big fat negative) beta/blood test result yesterday. There are three things that I know to be true: 1. I am definitely infertile. The diagnosis is correct. It doesn’t mean that I won’t be […]
My DH and I are 100% teammates throughout this whole process. High-fives happen after PIO injections, texts of “I need a pep talk captain” are responded to with supportive affirmations that we are doing everything we can. I gave him a book called “What to Expect When She’s Not Expecting” – it’s been a great resource […]
I received a text today from a friend who is a mom of a two month old and a two year old: “Just think positive – it’s all you can do right?” I texted back “Yup – but what does that even mean?” and then quickly erased the “but what does that even mean?” as […]
“The mistake is thinking that there can be an antidote to the uncertainty.” ― David Levithan, The Lover’s Dictionary So this is it Day 4 of 14 of the 2ww. 10 days to go. 240 hours… 14,400 minutes, 864,000 seconds which amounts to approximately A LOT of what if, controlling, searching for answer-type thoughts. The […]
I would like to explain the excessive use of the “F” word in my latest posts. I feel that it has been the perfect expletive to describe the slight pseudo psychosis that has walked beside me since the beginning of this journey. If you are bothered by it, simply replace that word with something nicer, […]
What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Fertile? 