What’s Fair?

This morning I spotted a woman I know who was suddenly visibly pregnant (what’s up with that sudden visibility anyway?) Long story short, she met her husband, they were married within months and now they’re pregnant.  I know her husband well and know that he’s wanted to find someone to start a family with for […]

7 Days Closer To The Insane Asylum Playlist

I’m at the 1/2 way point of the 2ww and losing my mind, quietly, mind you and without needing ANY MORE ADVICE from anyone who has not been through the infertility journey.  Demanding? Yes, but this is why I started writing my own blog :).  In an effort to keep the spirits up, I have […]

Friends You’ve Never Met…

My DH and I are 100% teammates throughout this whole process.  High-fives happen after PIO injections, texts of “I need a pep talk captain” are responded to with supportive affirmations that we are doing everything we can. I gave him a book called “What to Expect When She’s Not Expecting” – it’s been a great resource […]

What Does ‘Think Positive’ Mean???

I received a text today from a friend who is a mom of a two month old and a two year old: “Just think positive – it’s all you can do right?”  I texted back “Yup – but what does that even mean?” and then quickly erased the “but what does that even mean?” as […]

The Two Week Wait…To Be Continued and Continued and Continued

“The mistake is thinking that there can be an antidote to the uncertainty.” ― David Levithan, The Lover’s Dictionary So this is it Day 4 of 14 of the 2ww.  10 days to go.  240 hours… 14,400 minutes, 864,000 seconds which amounts to approximately A LOT of what if, controlling, searching for answer-type thoughts. The […]

Too Much Too Soon

I would like to explain the excessive use of the “F” word in my latest posts.  I feel that it has been the perfect expletive to describe the slight pseudo psychosis that has walked beside me since the beginning of this journey.  If you are bothered by it, simply replace that word with something nicer, […]

The Advice…….Oh The Advice……

The problem with most advice is not that it’s bad or ill intentioned, but that it’s devoid of context.  – The Big Enough Company Throughout this journey I’ve been blessed with support from family, friends and weirdly strangers.  But every so often (realistically every day) someone somewhere offers up a gem or two that knocks […]

Failure or Feedback?

This was written following my first unsuccessful medicated IUI cycle: Sometimes I find myself being consciously caught in a lesson.  This time it happened in the Whole Foods checkout line, while attempting to soothe myself through purchasing a majorly big bag of Jane’s popcorn (the best popcorn ever – like ever!) The theme of this […]

HOPE can be a four letter word

I’m a rookie, a newbie, a recruit and a pioneer of my own reproductive system. If this process weren’t so painful, I’d find it more fascinating. Nothing is constant, everything is in flow, each new piece of information seems really, really good and then I find out that it’s actually not great in the scheme […]

Holding You Back…….Juuuust A Little Bit……..GANiRELIX

Tonight I took my Ganerelix shot, rumored to be less intense than lupron, Ganerlix is normally used on women suffering from DOR (diminished ovarian reserve.)  According to Wikipedia: Ganirelix is used as a fertility treatment drug for women. Specifically, it is used to prevent premature ovulation in women undergoing fertility treatment involving ovarian hyperstimulation that […]